my Precious family, friends, Dragonboat, my com, Microsoft SideWinder X6, Razer Diamondback and Mantis, FfR, PsP, iPod touch, E51 ~ PROFILE LIONEL SONG 020490 SINGLE P o l a r i s X h u n t e R T e n R a i D i v i n i t y P u r e . P o l a r i s laiNer part-time dragonboater Dota-rian Blackshot EXTREME gamer Selarang Camp 3 SIR Upcoming.... MORE to come..... Desire... a GOLD medal complete 21km go poly be with her* finish NS = ORD LOH ! God of War 3 Class 3 driving license Pass Basic Theory Test Pass Final Theory Test Pass Traffic Police Test FRENS... t0ofu jennifer phyllis yanling junguang ashley carin natalie shawna sally xinjie sharyl joey vian xylia DRAGONBOATERS... jane karenn bryan candice mossy jonnie shawn gilbert carinn hsingyu ARCHIVE CREDITS Codes: -RAJAHchindian | Inspiration: kissandtell | Background: Kollermedia | Image Host: Photobucket |
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Monday, December 31, 2007
LONG PULL ~   blisters from my palm..after rowin my fingers is super numb...even after i reached home   no more cold and rainy daes...sian ytd went out wif lian and vian for their job interview...turned out the office seems to be close...hahaha....then slack whole dae wif them... cant really slp last nite...slept from 12 to 4am...then from 4am onwards cant slp le...i dunno y is tis happenin to me... left the hse early for morning run.. runnin was nt quite bad...but kana stitches..i dunno how to spell..can roughly get the meaning of it...lol we rowed for 14km todae...its HELL ! rowed to the floating platform and make a U turn back to cosy bay bridge then back to medeka bridge...approv 7km..so we did 2 rds...after the floating platform i felt relax liao...then row and forget the pain...cuz Pain is weakness leaving the body... 2nd rd is quite tiring..cuz my stitches act up again..very pain..but have to endure it...cuz if we wan to suffer, we suffer as a team... last part of training...the PULL UP BAR ! my phobia...realli scared of tt..the bar...is..arr dun wanna tok abt it... reached home ard 2plus..changed my clothes then lie on my bed..sms-ing cum listenin music...then i fell asleep till 7 plus plus... until nw my stitches still thr...wow i finally noe how to spell stitches..i jus anyhow type then the word jus came out...woot ! and im still missing u... during the 7km row..90% of the time i was tinkin abt u...and eventually the stitches went off... hais ~ DO it wif style, or dun bother doing it ~ i tried to fly; 12:27 AM Saturday, December 29, 2007
TURNING POINT OF LIFE ! i jus... felt like pushing, exerting myself till i die.... last few trgs, been feelin very short of breathe...i ask my fren..he told me its because of the weather...might be...might nt be..who noes ? and i oso can feel my life is getting boring..doing stupid things...ppl who dun like me but pretend to be frens.... but on the other hand..wat will happen if i jus go ? my family will suffer........... look on the brighter side lionel.... all nite im been tinking of her...i jus cant slp...and i want to tell u how much i love u...but i dun have the GUTS to say it...how can i call myself a man ? i guess tis is the turning point of life...whr everything starts to change.. for the better ? or for the worst ? 3 daes to my year end results...... oh man ~ DO it wif style, or dun bother doing it ~ i tried to fly; 4:30 AM Wont go Home without you............. I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen i tried to fly; 4:27 AM Friday, December 28, 2007
Close ur eyes, Make a wish ~  took tis photo at the bowlin alley of Safra Resort..no psp for me to play...BORED ~ bad hair day too hmm... past few daes have been boring for me...wakin up late in the afternoon..slping late in the morning... totally no mood to do anything.. at ALL ! trg todae turned out to be... nt bad ? attendance have started to increase..which is good... i ran short of 2 rounds todae...feelin very bad abt it...cuz i miscount...and some1 was sayin i slack or watever...say watever u wan..i jus miscounted..and i dun do tt purposely...im nt like tt guy who nv comes to trg and slack all dae.... weights trg was quite tough...i can feel my arm muscles starting to tense up T.T ran from somewhr tt cold water is gud for relaxing muscles after exercising...hmm when i was running...i guess the reason i miscalculated was u...i dunno y..but ur face keep appearing in my mind...that kept me running and going on..no matter how tired i m...i still feel strong and full of stamina...u kept me goin on girl...ty so much ~ back to trg.. newbies joined us for the 1st time for land trg..tis 2 'kids' 1 of them goin to ite next year...he looks very young..i mean very young...a look at his face u will tink tt he is 14 or 15... the second guy...OMG ! he has a chao lao bin..no offence dude...i do have a chao lao bin too -.- nv i expected the guy to be SECONDARY 3 NEXT YEAR ! i tot his goin poly next year..we all were shocked when he said he goin sec 3 next year...was totally stunned for 3 secs ! his body build oso seems poly-like...hahaha im glad im nt the youngest in the team anymore..but some1 reminded me...he told me to push myself even harder nw..cuz i cant lose out to youngster...hais...so toturing.. well..i guess thats all for todae...i tried nt to type so mani sad things anymore cuz some1 is commenting tt my blog seems emo -.- im nt being emo..i jus feel.. u noe Do it wif style, or dun bother doing it ~ i tried to fly; 2:26 AM Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Crying myself to slp everynight...........    view from the Inter Contential Hotel at bugis...highest floor ~   had xmas party ytd at the inter contential hotel wif my db frens... reached at 6 plus...started to prepare for the food... party was fun..esp the exchanging presents after 12 mn... after the exchanging of presents, my frens and i went dwn to walk ard bugis....veri quiet...and boring.... watched I am Legend at my fren's laptop... rating for the show = 0/10 totally disappointing...story was veri quiet...veri slow too..mani of us fell asleep...but i managed to stay up the whole nite..left the place at 8 when every1 is still in their dreams...hahaha i wished her merry xmas ytd..but she received quite late...plannin to be the 1st to send her a merry xmas msg..i guess i failed...... im still tinking of u.... lookin forward to seeing u again ~ Do it wif style, or dun BOTHER doing it ~ i tried to fly; 1:34 AM Sunday, December 23, 2007
爱你一万年 ~ hot ~ rain ~ normal when is the weather goin to get fine ? had sea trg todae... newbies came for orientation..nt exactly newbies...some r experience...quite friendly..tok to some of them... rowed wif them for a while...then at 11.15pm, we split to our seniors boat...did 4 sets of 500m.. no starts...but it was hell...poh soon was shouting at us...mostly is because of our stroke...cuz some ppl nv turned up for trg regularly...and i tink tt irraities* him alot... but b4 tt...when we r rowin wif the newbies...we rowed to the marina floating platform... 1 thing tt spoils my day alot....i was jus glancing at the new Singapore Flyer...some1 shouted at me and told me to concentrate...i was like... WTH ? ? I WAS JUS LOOKIN AT SOMETHING...AND U NID TO SHOUT AT ME ? TELLING ME TO CONCENTRATE ? ? COME ON MAN ! i was nt feelin gud for the past few daes..and tis thing totally spoils my dae...nt onli todae...but on other trg daes, some ppl like to shoot me alot...reason ? i dun push... how the hell u noe i didnt push ? cuz i nv run fast ? i was nt born to run like a crazy marathon runner..i admit i dun have the stamina..u have to understand me..im nt a sports freak..but i have TRIED to push myself...and i dun feel gud..i everytime felt like dieing...i noe u have experienced b4..but u have to understand me...i have nt been thru army and kana takan fierce trg b4...pls...i like being pushed but nt in tis manner... i rmber 1 trg...the last 100m, the ladies have overtaken me..but i managed to get my stamina back in a few meters jus to chiong the last 100m...but u dun have to shout and demoralise me at the stadium sayin ' LADIES R OVERTAKING U LIAO ! ' its damn fuckin embarassing... sori i have to use vulgar....but i have face.... i noe its for my own good..but i have limits...i have stretch my limits...dun make me over train myself and end up dieing...i still have 90 over years to live....dun make me die so young.. i noe it sounds stupid...but im fat, pushin too much might kill myself in the process...... sometimes i feel tt ppl in the db team doesnt like me... i have tried to change my attitude...i noe im lazy..and i dun like running...but i will try my best to turn up for next sun's morning run...mayb im jus feeling paranoid............. plus i have nt told the 1 i love my feelings for her.... i damn envy ppl who r in r/s... feels gud to have some1 u love and being loved...... tml will be havin christmas party wif db frens.... how i wish i can bring her over...... am i destined to be alone for the rest of my life ? ? i feel like tellin u the truth...abt my feelings towards you...cuz u will nv noe...i might jus pass on...esp the sport i am in...the recent db accident makes me feel tt life is so tt cheap....jus a minor mistake and ur out of tis world... no more replays no more restarts i was plannin to tell u the truth todae..but u werent online.....i guess ur busy wif ur work... ur special in alot of ways...i dunno how to say it...but i noe tt ur my type of girl...simply simple ~ jus wanna tell you tis...even if u have a bf or other guys in mind...jus wan to tell u tt i have you specially in my heart...jus 1 room...FOR YOU ~  爱你一万年 ~ Andy Lau 地球自转一次是一天 那是代表多想你一天 真善美的爱恋 没有极限也没有缺陷 地球公转一次是一年 那是代表多爱你一年 恒久的地平线 和我的心永不改变 爱你一万年 爱你经得起考验 飞越了时间的局限 拉近了地域的平面 紧紧的相连 紧紧相连 有了你的出现 占据了一切我的视线 我爱你一万年 Do it wif style, or dun bother doing it ~ i tried to fly; 11:17 PM Friday, December 21, 2007
Pain is weakness leaving the body ~   **rainy daes reminds me more of u..** i tried to fly; 8:48 PM Memories ~ went back to bhss todae for cca open hse... and tis time.. i went wif my bro...for the 1st time as outsiders...hahahaha... i can rmber 5 years back...when i was still a toot.. short and fat... blur and cock -.- haha... bring back lots of memories.... after tt went home...nth much to do...went to zzz and since tis morning...my left eye is so red...dunno wat happen ? did i cry myself to slp last nite ? ? cuz i was tinkin of her everynite b4 i go to slp... who noes ? ? ytd trg was sucky...onli 5 turned up...including ladies...guess it was because of a public hols so no 1 came...but all of us received msg tt thr will be trg...damn it...kana bluff -.-|| hahaa...ran 10 rds and we went for dinner instead of goin for weights and pool rowing...seriously who would wanna train when thr is onli 5 ppL ? ? damn it..i realised tt running...can solve alot of probs..nt as in run away from them...exercising is gud for releasing stress...do try it...run more rounds...u can even run 15 rounds..cuz when u r troubled, u will eventually boost up ur stamina and morale...i dunno y...but tts how i feel when im troubled.......... Do it wif style , or dun bother doing it ~ i tried to fly; 6:47 PM Wednesday, December 19, 2007
dying is CHEAP, life is EXPENSIVE ~ its simple to die...jus go up 20 floors up....and jump dwn...simply simple ~ its nt easy to give life...have to do ***, then have to wait results, wait for 9 months for the baby to be ripe...can thr he comes...its so long...take so much time... nt feelin very cheerful as b4...dun noe y... mayb its jus u..that makes me feel so lonely............. how i wish i could hold u tightly... never letting u go... no1 can make me happy... jus you... seeing u its like the sun appearing after a heavy rain....... hais ~ Do it wif style, OR DUN BOTHER DOING IT DUMBASS ~ i tried to fly; 9:16 PM Won't go home without YOU ~ song was intro-ed by candice... thx ~ i tried to fly; 9:14 PM Monday, December 17, 2007
WAY TO GO ! BET U CANT FREAKIN DO IT AGAIN ! DUMBASS i tried to fly; 4:19 PM So Close ~ finally masters series is OVER ! ytd a memorial service for our 5 beloved dragonboaters was held at bedok... had our last masters..heats was nt tt gud...onli 3 boats.and top 3 can get into semis..so we nv do our last charge.. semis was even worst...dunno y we cant manage to pull out from the starts...all beacuse of some idiot who say "oh, we are so dead"...every1 gt so demoralised...fucker..everytime liddat...so negative..dumbass ~ failed to get into grand finals...so we head on to minor...and tt dumbass nv row from the pontoon to the starting point...cuz he say he very pecha liao...knn i rowed for the 3 events, i more pecha then him la...always slack 1..stupid dumbass... back to minor..our starts are so gud tt lane 5's boat rided our wave and bang into us...and guess wat ? those pricks held on to our boat..LOL and i was shouting ' left side row harder ! ' for abt a few times...then we finally managed to 'released' them from our boat and we CHIONG all the way to the finishin point..we all used our last energy to surge until we r jus at the back of the rest of the boats... and we FELT GOOD ! our ARGRESTION* was thr... hahaha..dunno how to spell the word.. after the masters we had our picnic at bedok.. zen fetched me home from bedok to tpy...thx zen ! mapled for a while i slept for quite long...woke up at 10pm..very long.. todae had nth much... some ppl came to my hse and changed my kitchen cabinet...everything is changing in my hse liao...nice ~ then maple and dota then goin to maple soon le... everytime i watched enchanted..reminds me of some1.. some1 who i 'cant' love ? or even have a relationship...*its nt a guy and im NOT GAY !* listening to the songs from the movie reminds me more of her... how m i goin to forget tis girl... hais ~ love stress ! Do it wif style, or dun bother doing it ~ i tried to fly; 3:57 PM Thursday, December 13, 2007
SILENCE... I'LL KILL YOU ! watch tis...freaking damn funny ! i tried to fly; 2:43 AM Thursday, December 6, 2007
She was so Beautiful ~ hmm... todae totally sucks... had my 1st and last exam of the year todae...the topics i learned, NV CAME OUT ! and the mok still tell us learn tis...lame shit..the exam topics i onli learned like 1/4 of the book onli ? arr lame shit ~ went home after tt...played ps2 for quite long...then went for trg... todaes trg kinda.. o rite ? nt too fierce ? its onli the running is so torturing...ran 2.4km, but each rd the last 100m mus sprint...i sprint until i cant even breathe anymore...zz past few daes r kinda bored for me...ytd rained the whole dae...so cold >.< im feeling very cold nw...its like winter nw..in singapore...hais................... wish i had some1 beside me nw... some1 who i can share my love wif... some1 who i can share my probs... hmm..... ARRRRR... ANYWAY ! my gud bro nicholas tay zi yong is enlisted todae...hahaha...hope he love the trg thr... ALL THE BEST ~ Do it wif style, or dun bother doing it ~ i tried to fly; 11:18 PM Sunday, December 2, 2007
photos from meiyan's bdae ~  the guy on my left goin to army on dec 6...ALL THE BEST NICHOLAS ~     i tried to fly; 10:53 PM |
